It’s pretty clear to me now that I will never be anyone’s first choice. There’s always something, someone, more important than me. I will never mean enough to anyone. I’m not sure why I always trust people cause seriously, they’ll fuck you over every single time. Humans are naturally self-centered and to be honest, that’s pretty fucking sad. I’m over kissing feet to keep people in my life. I feel like friendships and relationships can’t thrive if there isn’t equal effort and sacrifice. If I’m sitting there pulling all the weight, what’s the point anyways? They have to want you in their life just as badly. Frankly, I forsee many people leaving my life because I put forth more than they do.
On another note, as shitty as everything has been lately, I’m about to leave to go to the car dealership where my 2013 Chevy Spark is waiting for me. Everything happens for a reason, and this so proves it to me. NOT TO MENTION, IT IS IN BABY PINK. MY FAVORITE MOTHER FUCKING COLOR. CAN I GET A FUCK YEAH. I literally could not ask for a more perfect car. The best part is the 38 mpg. :,)
Wait are you and nelka dating or what is going on with you two be honest
Jesus Christ people literally 6 messages within 30 minutes of me posting that…. Calm your knickers! We’re waiting for the right moment to make it official but it won’t be long chitlinz~ das ma baby. Now pls stop asking me about it cause rest assured, I will let you know when we’re dating. Xo.